Checkin for Signs
[I just saw "V for Vendetta" at the theater. Take home message number one: there are no coincidences.]
1. Exactly six months ago today I wrote about "Letting Go, and Letting God." I discussed my fear of faith, and my young adult attempts to distance myself from my the Christianity of my childhood, and finally trusting the universe to have my back if I started walking not by sight.
2. The flood (on the 6th day of July) that washed away my car last year took with it the Bible of my adolescence. The purple one with my name engraved in gold letters. I did not buy a new Bible until today. While on the Bible aisle, I was grabbed by a book called "Stealing Jesus: How Fundmentalism Betrays Christianity." Of course I purchased it, even though it was outside of my budget.
3. Tonight I am planning my first trip to Bible Study (first like ever in life).
4. I have recently allowed myself to be open with a woman who is a Converative Christian Republican. She believes that everything that does not "glorify God" is satanic. This includes, but is not limited to : yoga, all forms of meditation that are not on the Word, Unitarianism, Humanism, Target, Harry Potter, astrology, and even Cabbage Patch dolls. Needless to say we disagree regularly, and more so now as this season of our friendship seems to be ending.
5. I am on my moon cycle. Poo and I have been dreaming of each other every night. We hadn't talked in weeks, but in a brief conversation a week or so ago, we discovered that both of our periods had gone missing. Just disappeared, like they ran off together or something. Monday night, we spent over an hour on the phone going through the range of emotions. Tuesday, we both got our cycles.
6. My mother called today to tell me about a dream she had where I was sick. She saw me as I was in my preschool class photo, when I had a stomach virus. She was worried about me and thought I needed something.
I don't know what all this means. I do know that I am watching the signs. I know that this is an important moment in my life. I have decided to live it with the fullness and honor it deserves. I will love freely, live outside of my fears, take giant leaps of faith, and prepare myself to welcome this moment with wide-open arms.
"Light hits my window and I am waiting..."
1. Exactly six months ago today I wrote about "Letting Go, and Letting God." I discussed my fear of faith, and my young adult attempts to distance myself from my the Christianity of my childhood, and finally trusting the universe to have my back if I started walking not by sight.
2. The flood (on the 6th day of July) that washed away my car last year took with it the Bible of my adolescence. The purple one with my name engraved in gold letters. I did not buy a new Bible until today. While on the Bible aisle, I was grabbed by a book called "Stealing Jesus: How Fundmentalism Betrays Christianity." Of course I purchased it, even though it was outside of my budget.
3. Tonight I am planning my first trip to Bible Study (first like ever in life).
4. I have recently allowed myself to be open with a woman who is a Converative Christian Republican. She believes that everything that does not "glorify God" is satanic. This includes, but is not limited to : yoga, all forms of meditation that are not on the Word, Unitarianism, Humanism, Target, Harry Potter, astrology, and even Cabbage Patch dolls. Needless to say we disagree regularly, and more so now as this season of our friendship seems to be ending.
5. I am on my moon cycle. Poo and I have been dreaming of each other every night. We hadn't talked in weeks, but in a brief conversation a week or so ago, we discovered that both of our periods had gone missing. Just disappeared, like they ran off together or something. Monday night, we spent over an hour on the phone going through the range of emotions. Tuesday, we both got our cycles.
6. My mother called today to tell me about a dream she had where I was sick. She saw me as I was in my preschool class photo, when I had a stomach virus. She was worried about me and thought I needed something.
I don't know what all this means. I do know that I am watching the signs. I know that this is an important moment in my life. I have decided to live it with the fullness and honor it deserves. I will love freely, live outside of my fears, take giant leaps of faith, and prepare myself to welcome this moment with wide-open arms.
"Light hits my window and I am waiting..."
posted by GeminiMoonPoet at 3/22/2006 04:19:00 PM
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